first of december twenty-ten. (103)

vlog deux (102)

a day in his life.

j.

c.

rap. vent. hate. truth. shameless effort.

When I get serious, my analysis gets meticulous

It's so hilarious when folks get all furious

Acting all defensive and surprisingly righteous

Knowing damn well they never accomplished much

Name your contributions to society as such

People these days are easy to read

Facebook informs them of everything they need

When exploited they be quick to plead

Quick to open their mouth and then quick to delete

This goes for those who talk shit electronically

Shut the fuck up please.

Yes I'm talking to you, you, and you.

And if you think I'm referring to you, then yes I'm talking to you (too)

Y'all bucks ain't much, I know you mad and you feel the rush

But calm down, keep your composure, it's a must

When you turn twenty life ain't as free as you want it to be

Damn I envy you stupid teens and I'm not using stupid loosely

Using it strictly, it's the term that sums up the new generation

Have you seen what these kids doing or sayin'?

Immature, selfish, naive, dumb fucks

To get by in life you're gonna need dumb-luck

Fourteen year olds what the hell do you know about love?

That's the sensation of infatuation that you're feeling

Save yourself, so when the pre is disconnected from mature you can make rational decisions

Whether it be right or wrong, at least you picked the best

And you wake up with no regrets.

But then again who am I to judge?

Who am I to dictate how you live your life?

Do what ever y'all want to make you sleep easier at night

Goodnight.

2Pac - Dear Mama

I love my mom. I tear every time I listen to this song, that's why I usually reserve the moment usually once a year (mother's day) but since mamma be overseas at this moment, I just had to play it...

20 years and at the same time 6 months...

I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND. If only she feels the same way...

i love (junior) college.

I'm actually in university but still... feeling this song.

life.

So it's been a while (how many times am I going to start off an entry using a phrase of that relevance?) since I've actually posted a legitimate entry, but to update all ya'll I am in the midst of midterms this semester and I am hating it. Cramming never hurt so much, fear of failing have never been so dominating, and the future never looked so bleak. But in a positive note, I finally got hired! I'll shall be suiting up for the role of produce clerk once more, as I shall start my stint at the Bloor Street Market (owned by Loblaws and they're unionized!). So yes... I can once again live with the secure feeling of having income coming in to my bank account, no more using momma's money. I can finally pay for my girlfriend again! Anyways peace.

Get your academic bars up.

keep pushin'

nintendo.

#win

moments with significance...

So my sweetheart had class yesterday evening and her prof asked the entire class to list down 10 memorable days or moments, hearing this I felt the need to make a list for myself. So in no particular order (chronologically or significance, maybe except for the first few... who knows the first few dates probably mean the most while the rest are toss ups)

• Monday May 10th, 2010
• Friday July 9th, 2010
• August 31st, 1994
• November 15th
• The day I landed in Japan
• The day I graduated
• Yesterday
• The day my parents got me Playstation 1
• The night I got into my first car accident
• The day I got my first bass guitar (Veronica)

yeah.

beamer, benz,or bentley.

UNDER MY SKIN [PV]

fresh.

It has been quite some time since I last blessed my readers (if there are any) with an entry. This summer was nothing like most summers I've had. 4 months off, the majority of which I spent working (I quit my job btw, last day was August 28th I believe) and/or with the old lady (what I mean by old lady I will let you decide).

Let's recap on what I've done since my last blog entry... I've gone to a Jays game (we won yay!), dined at the CN Tower, tried Indian food (which was awesome by the way, lamb saag FTW!), ate lots and lots of sushi (mmmm sushi...), had a picnic at High Park and I made pasta for the lady as well, went to the Molson Amphitheater to check out Metric (she took me, I ended up enjoying it), watched a few movies (Despicable Me being my favourite), shared laughs and beers at a BBBQ (the extra B meaning BYOB, meaning bring your own beer), finally checked out the AGO (failed my expectations and was totally boring). What a run on sentence huh? Mainly this summer consisted of eating and spending what ever money I received on eating. Now I'm jobless and broke and school is about to embark on yet another year.

I will say this, I am excited for school... which starts in about 8 hours as I type. First class is 8AM #lose. Yes, I've been also tweeting a lot this summer, it's a drug seriously. But dammit I love Twitter. I am entering third year now and honestly it's a make or break year. I gotta buckle down and get serious. TIME TO PUT IN WORK. I also gotta find another part-time job, still waiting on a phone call for interviews... job fair here I come. Also I gotta get serious about my health I ate way too much this summer, gained a few pounds and I am not happy about it, though I was happy when I ate all those meals. Mmmmmmm yummy in my tummy.

This Friday (the tenth of the ninth month of the 2010th year) will be my four month anniversary. wh00t! though it is only just a number... Fuck that I need all the reason to be happy and celebratory! #truedat

This is probably the last time I'm going to blog with this laptop as I shall be getting a brand new one on the 8th. So love and peace to all. Drink a beer (I don't really intake alcohol too well) and enjoy the rest of summer.

Ciao.

Oh how do you like the new layout? Blogger finally got some new themes!

done with you.

I was last with you two weeks ago, since then times have been hard.

Everybody tells me to drop you, forget about you,

and should have never gotten acquainted with you.

Then fourteen days ago I did the unexpected... I stopped coming back to you.

Since then I've been having a hard time dealing with stress and adversity.

Whenever I feel overwhelmed with anxiety, you bring me back to Earth.

Whether it be for a second or three minutes, you put me in a trance.

I feel emancipated whenever you're with me.

I wish I can put my lips on you again...

But I mustn't...

She overwrote the page that haunts me everyday.
Eradicating all my doubts and the stigma that entailed me from the last one.
Now the next page shall be less ominous than predicted, if not defogged from the haze that clouds events that have yet to occur...

coming out.

.

HOT.

LOST IN THE AIR.

What do you do when your conscience tells you one thing, but your heart tells you another?

Isolated on a narrow path, which direction do you go?

Does the compass of fate really come in handy at a time like this?

Either way you're just escaping from one or the other outcome.

They say you have all day to make up your mind, but do you really?

As one second passes, that's one second that you'll never get back.

So what's it going to be?

Wait or act now?

diamond phillips.

Currently listening to Diamond Phillips off the latest STRAIGHTENER album (Creatures). It's my favourite track off this record, not sure why. Life's looking better as of late, even if it means there's an expiry date stamped on it. Summer break is boring, all I do is play Pokemon and go to work. And what is up with the weather as of late? Like what the fuck?

too close.

Bumpin to that ol school joint by Next. Damn what a month it has been, it's been a long winding road with bumps and lumps. But there have been some smooth turns and times when I was on cruise control. At last school is done with, time to chill and get back to the grind. Anybody play Pokemon? Since getting it about 2-3 weeks ago, I've logged in over 120 hours... what does that tell you about me? Please, I want to know.

Went to H&M grand "re-opening" today with a friend. I don't understand how I ended up buying more clothes than her and she just got accessories haha. Thank god they were giving out scratch-off cards, I got 15 dollars off and ended up only paying 19 dollars!! Sweet deal for some nice swag. Korean bbq followed up after the shopping event. Overall good day. Looking forward to this summer, showered in alcohol and mind numbing video game stimulation. wh00t!

Now... Alakazam, Mewtwo,... who else..

Tegan And Sara - Back In Your Head

no cheap thrill.

This song's chorus probably has something to do with ART's Lolita Kills Me chorus... either way its a good song. I've never heard of Suzanne Vega, maybe I should buy some of her albums, apparently she was very influential... of some sort.

end of march.

Why do I still have these perennial and meticulous feelings?

Day 'n' Night.

feather.

I wish I was as light as a feather. So light that I can float ever so carelessly yet so gently. Without even walking I can go where ever the wind takes me. Twisting and turning in the air, I want to be free.

beer.

I can't handle more than two cans, yet I'm craving for some right now. This is more like a tweet rather than a entry eh?

dysphoria.

Hello? Is anyone there? Oh right I live alone. These days I find myself in a low state. Actually it has been going on for a while now. Isolated not by choice, I realize the only thing that keeps my spirits up is music. It sucks when you listen to a song that you like, but the lyrics are so relative to what you been through or to even how you are currently that it just brings you down even deeper. But at the same time you can't help but finish listening to the song, than to rather press skip. Or maybe it's just me?

I confessed to my mom that I smoked just a moment ago, though I wouldn't have to if she didn't confront me about it. She asked me why and I simply didn't answer. Why? Because she wouldn't understand me. Even if I spoke in perfect Vietnamese she still wouldn't be able to register my reasons. There's a generation gap between us, as well as a cultural difference that would render her incompatible of accepting my way of thinking and living. It's fine I've come to accept the difference, though if she could understand it would make my life a lot easier.

It sucks not having anybody to actually talk to and converse with for a long duration. It makes the day goes by longer. I do miss her I'll admit. It's hard not to, not to sound like a broken R&B song but there are things that remind me of her, which makes it harder for me to not think of her. Now I'm not the type cry or whine when things like that pop up or anything, but when it does I just can't help but feel a little dead inside. Not a day goes by where I don't ponder to myself about her well being.

love in a trashcan.

Just discovered this band... One word, awesome.

sonic youth.

Did a lil shopping again at HMV today.

then i said, "go!"

I've been listening to Weezer a lot lately, it has indeed been ages since turned on one of their songs. It's such a refreshing quencher for my ears. I forgot how much I love this band. Right now I'm listening to their single off their latest album (Ratitude), called (If You're Wondering If I Want You To) I Want You To. I absolutely adore this song. In other news today I stopped by HMV and picked up the latest Vampire Weekend album, I was also hoping to find the one DVD that Weezer ever released but failed :(

Also it turns out I got accepted in to this student exchange program! Winter 2011 see you later Canada and greetings Sweden. That's right, I'll be studying abroad in Sweden for a semester next year, excited? Yes I am. It's gonna be a lot of money but I'm sure it will be well worth it. I'll get to go around Europe while I'm there. Can't wait to see what its like on the other side. New people, new scenery, new environment, new atmosphere, new everything. As for now I just gotta focus on getting done with school while I'm still here and save up mad money. I just stopped myself from buying $60 headphones earlier... So tempting.

P.S. I hate this laptop...

Misstopia.

I seriously gotta learn Japanese... The whole song is beautiful, no?

i'm a mess since you left.

This song just touches home...

who are these guys?

Who are these guys? Seriously! This song is awesome. The lead guitarist honestly looks like Toddy of ART-SCHOOL.

he's back.

Ladies and gentlemen, T-Mac is back. Unfortunately, his return to the NBA resulted in turmoil as his new squad fell to the the roaring OKC Thunder in overtime. I am so ecstatic that McGrady is playing again, Vince isn't as impressive (as of late) and well I'm getting tired of seeing highlights being macro-ed by the Kobe-LeBron-Wade combo. It's time for something refreshing, something smooth, that something is Mr. Tracy McGrady. Cheers.

P.S. 26 points in his first game back after missing what? A year and a half? (The games he played this season with Houston doesn't count, because well... they barely even played him!) Not bad... not bad at all.

chocolat.

Sent wirelessly from my BlackBerry device on the Bell network.
Envoyé sans fil par mon terminal mobile BlackBerry sur le réseau de Bell.

uh huh her.

Just discovered this sweet duo off last.fm!

weapons of mass destruction.

Sent wirelessly from my BlackBerry device on the Bell network.
Envoyé sans fil par mon terminal mobile BlackBerry sur le réseau de Bell.

10.

Ten. It's been ten years since music gave birth to ART-SCHOOL and what a child they raised. ART-SCHOOL, a band that will forever occupy a spot in my heart, have been the most played band on in my music library occupying over 50% of my accumulated plays. The genius behind the act, Riki Kinoshita, his lyrics speak to my heart as much as the composition of each song reverberates in my ears. Never had I listened to a band that made me feel so in peace with myself. I've become a great big fan since I started listening to ART-SCHOOL two years ago and my love for the band has only grew since. As a big influence I base my own musical works in reference to them. I can only dream of having work anywhere near the masterpieces he has made. Even now BLACK SUNSHINE is still echoing in my head. A band so unique deserves at least a post dedicated to them. Congratulations on ten years, thank you for all your hard work and contribution to the entity named music. And thank you Riki for being you. You are an individual well deserved of recognition and praise. Cheers and may many more great things come in the near future.

I end this post with a video;

Test

Test.

EDIT:

I was testing out how to blog with mobile. Now I can just e-mail and the it will be posted here! SWEET!

drink of life... for the kids.

SOY MILK! I LOVE SOY MILK! After a hard day at work, I just want to come home and chill while sippin' on that soy milk.

around the clock.

"Don't be so blind."

year of the tiger.

A new year always starts off full with promises and goals no? Even prior to the grand day, there are already big hopes and aspirations waiting to be fulfilled during the course of the new year. Why is it that it's one day during the calendar that everybody gets so worked up? Why can't it be the same everyday? Why this day and not another? Even when goals aren't accomplished and wishes are not granted why is that the first thing people say is "Maybe next year?", why not say tomorrow? I know, I know, that in some circumstances that "next year" may be the only available window, but nonetheless why? In joining the social norm, I too hope that this year will be AWESOME.

Peace and Love to all, from the ground to those above.

Kudos.

P.S. I changed the template. New year new look, ya dig? Oh and there's only one post per page now.
P.P.S. The All-Star Dunk Contest, sucked. Seriously, DeMar should've won!
P.P.P.S. 67% on my ITM500 midterm!?!??! WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?
P.P.P.P.S I got $90 in red envelopes today, yay!
P.P.P.P.P.S I hate work.

nobody

nobody to talk to.

silent shades.

"Nothing seems like fun anymore."

So I applied online for this student exchange program today... My choices were Sweden, Scotland, and Denmark. I wonder if I'll actually get in... Time to get crunk tomorrow night?

100125.

You ever just had that feeling where you wanted to tell someone "You're dead to me.", just to let them get an itch about all the emotions running through your body and intake a dose of the thoughts that go on in your head?

You ever feel overwhelmed because you feel that your status towards another just deteriorated so quickly that you barely had a chance to catch a second breath?

You ever wake up and end up wanting to go back to sleep and never wanting to wake up?

You ever feel like there's just isn't enough time?

You ever...

the day.

When will the day come when that blonde comes knocking on my door?

nineteen.

I felt you in my legs
Before I even met you
And when I laid beside you
For the first time
I told you
I feel you in my heart,
And I don't even know you
Now we're saying
Bye, bye, bye
Now we're saying
Bye, bye, bye

I was nineteen
(Call me)

I felt you in my life
Before I ever thought to
Feel the need to lay down
Beside you
And tell you
I feel you in my heart,
And I don't even know you
And now we're saying
Bye, bye, bye
Now we're saying
Bye, bye, bye

I was nineteen
(call me)
I was nineteen
(call me)

Flew home,
Back to where we met
Stayed inside
I was so upset
Cooked up a plan,
So good except
I was all alone
You were all I had
Love you
You were all mine
Love me
I was yours right
I was yours right

I was nineteen
(call me)
I was nineteen
(call me)

Song by Tegan & Sara.

start.

The snow melted. It doesn't seem like the commitment will be renewed. At last a new season has started.

P.S. I'm all hot and sweaty.

If you leave.

This scene from the O.C. made me tear. Thank my slagathor for showing me the original song by OMD, I instantly remembered hearing the song but with a different tone somewhere else, and I knew it was from the O.C. and I yoututbed it and voila!

boobs,

Winter semester started. My first class today I fell asleep woke up halfway through and left... Not a great way to start the semester.

No.13 - ELLEGARDEN

September ninth
It's a sunny day
The smell of summer is still in the air
Your pirate ship
Has sailed away
I'm not so sure
What you've been up to

I give up trying to stop you
Instead I keep watching over your things
You always have a home here
You won't fail me though you come back
with empty hands

I'm waiting here you might not be back
I don't think I'm irrational
I'm waiting here you might not be back
I'm still at number 13

Your sails are full
The coast is clear
You have no doubt
Your ship won't strand
The trouble with is
You take too many chances but
that is also your strength

I'm often anxious
But I know you will make it through
In the highwind
Though you face a dead end

I'm waiting you might not be back
I don't think I'm irrational
I'm waiting you might not be back
I'm still at number 13

Oh, you said
You're not coming back
Oh, you said
You're not coming back

I give up trying to stop you
Instead I keep watching over your things
You always have a home here
You won't fail me though you come back
with empty hands

I'm waiting you might not be back
I don't think I'm irrational
I'm waiting you might not be back
I'm still at number 13

her,

His eyes widened
His breath is at a halt
From the fragment of his imagination
Stands afar the girl
That makes him feel it all
Vision blurred by the snow hitting the ground
He knew it was her
A beat going faster and faster was the only sound he heard.

201011

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!!!