end of march.

Why do I still have these perennial and meticulous feelings?

Day 'n' Night.

feather.

I wish I was as light as a feather. So light that I can float ever so carelessly yet so gently. Without even walking I can go where ever the wind takes me. Twisting and turning in the air, I want to be free.

beer.

I can't handle more than two cans, yet I'm craving for some right now. This is more like a tweet rather than a entry eh?

dysphoria.

Hello? Is anyone there? Oh right I live alone. These days I find myself in a low state. Actually it has been going on for a while now. Isolated not by choice, I realize the only thing that keeps my spirits up is music. It sucks when you listen to a song that you like, but the lyrics are so relative to what you been through or to even how you are currently that it just brings you down even deeper. But at the same time you can't help but finish listening to the song, than to rather press skip. Or maybe it's just me?

I confessed to my mom that I smoked just a moment ago, though I wouldn't have to if she didn't confront me about it. She asked me why and I simply didn't answer. Why? Because she wouldn't understand me. Even if I spoke in perfect Vietnamese she still wouldn't be able to register my reasons. There's a generation gap between us, as well as a cultural difference that would render her incompatible of accepting my way of thinking and living. It's fine I've come to accept the difference, though if she could understand it would make my life a lot easier.

It sucks not having anybody to actually talk to and converse with for a long duration. It makes the day goes by longer. I do miss her I'll admit. It's hard not to, not to sound like a broken R&B song but there are things that remind me of her, which makes it harder for me to not think of her. Now I'm not the type cry or whine when things like that pop up or anything, but when it does I just can't help but feel a little dead inside. Not a day goes by where I don't ponder to myself about her well being.

love in a trashcan.

Just discovered this band... One word, awesome.

sonic youth.

Did a lil shopping again at HMV today.

then i said, "go!"

I've been listening to Weezer a lot lately, it has indeed been ages since turned on one of their songs. It's such a refreshing quencher for my ears. I forgot how much I love this band. Right now I'm listening to their single off their latest album (Ratitude), called (If You're Wondering If I Want You To) I Want You To. I absolutely adore this song. In other news today I stopped by HMV and picked up the latest Vampire Weekend album, I was also hoping to find the one DVD that Weezer ever released but failed :(

Also it turns out I got accepted in to this student exchange program! Winter 2011 see you later Canada and greetings Sweden. That's right, I'll be studying abroad in Sweden for a semester next year, excited? Yes I am. It's gonna be a lot of money but I'm sure it will be well worth it. I'll get to go around Europe while I'm there. Can't wait to see what its like on the other side. New people, new scenery, new environment, new atmosphere, new everything. As for now I just gotta focus on getting done with school while I'm still here and save up mad money. I just stopped myself from buying $60 headphones earlier... So tempting.

P.S. I hate this laptop...