A few moments I decided to let go of one of the few things that keeps me distracted (rather than occupied for the right reason), I have just deactivated my Facebook account. Facebook has distracted me long enough and consumed an overwhelming amount of my time since I signed up for the fad back in 2007. It's time for a change, time to be more productive, time to be more aware, now is not the time to be stupid and naive, no more excuses. Period. If I want something I gotta go seek and get it, no more waiting. Those who wait will do nothing more than just that and get nothing more than just that.
I'm only 18 years old and already I'm working two jobs. On average I'll probably be working 6 days a week, it will be extremely difficult for me to find time to have fun. Tuition had to be so dam costly, as a matter fact the cost of living here in general is expensive, seriously fucken $3.50 fare for a damn bus ride? I started working at a factory and man it's extremely labour intensive, not only that but it is also mindless work. You do the same thing over and over again, as time pass by you start to think to yourself "This is not worth living for.". I truly feel empathy for the people I work with, they're all adults probably old enough to be my parents, and at such an age their stuck working such a pitiful job, it sucks man. Now I truly understand why my parents always stressed education, they don't want me ending up working in a warehouse for the rest of my life, struggling to make ends meet and have little to none for luxury spending.
My way of living needs to change too, no more sleeping past midnight. My new job requires me to start work at 8am! During last semester I didn't usually wake up until at least 10am. I need to restructure my sleep cycle, be more active, and quit lounging around the house! The sad thing is, I talk all this shit and I'm probably not gonna do any of it. It's just the way I am sadly, not many things get me excited anymore, maybe I'm just another dog of society put on this planet just to age and forced to do a job that makes those above me richer. The rich gets richer, the poor gets poorer, my friend reiterated that for me earlier today and I remember my professor saying it many times in his lecture. And indeed it is true. I just want a life where I can just sleep and go out and have fun, but I guess you need money for that too. If the economy was not in such a slump maybe I would not be in this situation, sad to say people but money does contribute to happiness. You can't do anything without money, think about it. Money makes the world go round but it also tears people apart; families, friends, relationships, and etc.
Aside from money, my life has also been a social mute. I am too incompetent, I have the hardest time approaching the opposite sex and befriending them. I'm surprised I do have a few friends that are of the opposite gender. Ironically, my closest friends are also girls with the except of the Jay Train (EAGLLLLLEEEEEEEE). But I'll leave it at that. To be short, it's time to man up. Time to activate a new life.
Peace.
I'm only 18 years old and already I'm working two jobs. On average I'll probably be working 6 days a week, it will be extremely difficult for me to find time to have fun. Tuition had to be so dam costly, as a matter fact the cost of living here in general is expensive, seriously fucken $3.50 fare for a damn bus ride? I started working at a factory and man it's extremely labour intensive, not only that but it is also mindless work. You do the same thing over and over again, as time pass by you start to think to yourself "This is not worth living for.". I truly feel empathy for the people I work with, they're all adults probably old enough to be my parents, and at such an age their stuck working such a pitiful job, it sucks man. Now I truly understand why my parents always stressed education, they don't want me ending up working in a warehouse for the rest of my life, struggling to make ends meet and have little to none for luxury spending.
My way of living needs to change too, no more sleeping past midnight. My new job requires me to start work at 8am! During last semester I didn't usually wake up until at least 10am. I need to restructure my sleep cycle, be more active, and quit lounging around the house! The sad thing is, I talk all this shit and I'm probably not gonna do any of it. It's just the way I am sadly, not many things get me excited anymore, maybe I'm just another dog of society put on this planet just to age and forced to do a job that makes those above me richer. The rich gets richer, the poor gets poorer, my friend reiterated that for me earlier today and I remember my professor saying it many times in his lecture. And indeed it is true. I just want a life where I can just sleep and go out and have fun, but I guess you need money for that too. If the economy was not in such a slump maybe I would not be in this situation, sad to say people but money does contribute to happiness. You can't do anything without money, think about it. Money makes the world go round but it also tears people apart; families, friends, relationships, and etc.
Aside from money, my life has also been a social mute. I am too incompetent, I have the hardest time approaching the opposite sex and befriending them. I'm surprised I do have a few friends that are of the opposite gender. Ironically, my closest friends are also girls with the except of the Jay Train (EAGLLLLLEEEEEEEE). But I'll leave it at that. To be short, it's time to man up. Time to activate a new life.
Peace.
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