Hey Julie.

Hey, it has been a while since your blogger has blogged has it not? I don't even remember the last time I made and entry, all I remember was it was about a Christmas wish list and about having a girlfriend. I don't know November seemed like such a epressing month, assignemtns due, though my birthday was in the mid of November, I find out a special person is leaving me for 8 weeks! She deserves it though, a well deserved vacation for the hardest working woman alive :)

My last blog I aired out my thoguhts on having an intimate partner and it was probably the most personal thing I have ever blogged upon, when I started this blog I told myself that I would shy away from writing about personal things such as that. But with what I'm going through right now (it's not really a big deal like it sounds like) I gotta type to get it off my chest. And I hope she does not reads this LOL. So I guess I'm getting girl trouble, not surprising to me. I haven't had this feeling in a while, is it bad? Is it good? With the countless thoughts I'm getting in my head right now, am I thinking about it way too much? Blowing this way out of proportion? With my past actions did I do something wrong? Made an uncalculated error? Did I already make her slip out of my hands? Did I even have a chance at all? Am I rushing things by smothering? Coming on too strong? -_- I've been seeking advice from friends lately and they all came with different adivce or replies. Has she sensed that I'm interested? Have I annoyed her or bored her already? Or maybe it's nothing like that at all and I'm just stressing over this issue too much? Maybe it's because I want this to happen so bad, all these scenerios pop up.

*Takes deep breath*

One of my best friends (I call him that because he's never ditched me, concerned about me and even after fights we make up like that.) showed me a song called "Hey Julie" by Fountains of Wayne, and it's been stuck in my head (also on heavey rotation on my media player). I guess I've been listening to this song because I'm feeling sorta emo (though the song is far from "emo"), I'm also trying to learn the chords to the song and so far I kind of got the first part down. This song is also fun to sing, I often find myself replacing Julie with the girl's name when singing.

Yesterday, I was able to purchase to effect pedals for the guitar. Now I need to buy some for my bass guitar, then pedal boards, the shit to power all the pedals simaltaneously. Damn this version of FireFox does not have spell check, so I'm pretty much doomed for grammer right now. These pedals are amazing, they give such rich, warm tone, clean and nice. It beats the built-in "drive" mode that comes pre-installed in mose amps these days I've had so much fun playing with them ^.^ (<-- that was so Asian). I'm pretty much done school now, all that's left is exams which I should start studying for. I got to hand in a hard copy of my ITM research paper tomorrow, so maybe while I'm down there I'll stop by Steve's Music Store and play around with their Fender Jazzmasters and pretend to be Toddy. As well as look at bass pedals and amps. Man, I can't seem to get her out of my head. Infatuation?

Whatever...HEY JULIE (8) *strums chord*

Pimpin'

I had all day off and what did I do? Absolutely nothing. I should have worked on my 12 page report due by Friday, but noooo I was sleeping and eating. At least I washed my bed sheets, washed my pillows, dusted my room, and got a substantial amount of time with my guitars; that reminds me my guitar string broke yet again! I just bought these set of strings last month what the hell man.

So it turns out I like jazz, or at least I believe it's jazz. I'm listening to this band called SOIL & "PIMP" SESSIONS. They're Japanese obviously or else I wouldn't listened to them. Don't ask where I heard of them, I just saw their name from some where... I think Hinata Hidekazu started a side project with SOIL & "PIMP" SESSIONS or something. But yeah, I got a chance to get (download ): ) their music and I did because I was curious of what they sounded like. Anybody working with Hinata Hidekazu must be good right? Right. I was instantly captured by their jazz sound. The drums and horns, I like ;) Right now I'm on to the fourth track (intro included)....sorry the sixth track (I just opened iTunes to check). Listeners should be aware that there are no vocals just pure organic sounding off from the instruments in composition. So far so good. If only I had money, I'd buy their CDs along with many other bands.

Holiday season is jsut around the corner and I'm waiting on my bank to see if I am eligible for their Student credit card. Once I'm able to get my hands on that I'll be able to shop online >=)
I've been thinking a lot lately, about a whole lot of shit not just Christmas. I get this feeling it's going to be another lonely break if you know what I'm saying. Exams just around the corner and my cousin from Vietnam is getting married on the 13th and I can't even fly half-way around the world to see it ):

Why is it that it's this time around that's the time where one does not want to be alone? Is it due to media? Is it because that society is sucked into the media's portrayal of the good life? Why isn't summer the time of the year where one shouldn't be alone or fall? What makes winter the ideal season to be in love? Is it just me asking these questions? I doubt it, if I'm able to think about this, then clearly so can a monkey. Is it one of those "just cause" things? Or has it somehow become a norm in society influenced by media through the acquisition of our consent? Honestly, had it not been for my sociology class I wouldn't have said what I've just mentioned above. For some reason I would like to be dating someone but why? Why do I feel like I'm obligated to find a girlfriend? Why does it bum me out that I am still single? Like most of my friends are single and based on the outside, being single doesn't bother them. Is it just me? Am I like "putting the pussy up on a pedestal" ? (40 Year Old Virgin reference) Or maybe it's due to the fact that I've never really dated someone and I want to experience it. Is it really what it seems? Is kissing the girl really that magical? Does making out really lead to something more enticing and arousing? Does holding her really make your heart warm? Or is it all a myth? Don't laugh I'm dead serious.

I really needed that venting, well not venting but yeah.

This winter break my goals and plans are:

• Exercise (cardio mostly)
• Get drunk with my older cousin
• Work as much as possible to make that paper
• Go to Montreal for a weekend or so
• Go skiing
• If possible a Nintendo DS w/ Chrono Trigger and Final Fantasy IV
• New bass amp along with other guitar gears
• Meet up with TEAM TERRIBLE (I'll fill you in on this some other time)
• LCD monitor
• RAM, external hard drive, and wireless router
  

Luckily for me, I get about 3 weeks off! I hope all my shifts will be in the evening that way I can sleep in. I'm planning to turn my basement in to a somewhat studio so that I can jam with others in. It's going to take me a while but it's a project I am willing to invest in. Music is love.

Peace and kudos.

18 years and five days.

Where can I start? I know in my last post I stated that I'd post again on Monday, but obviously that did not happen. I apologize for not keeping my word, it's just that I've been so lazy as of late. Like seriously, I gotta take my life more seriously. I have a 12 page report due next week, I have to finish my part for my group's assignment in one class, catch up on accounting (on everything actually), then theres this other class that I don't even know what the fuck is going on. ARG! I feel so disgruntled, this was such a shitty semester.

But I'm sure my fellow readers has had enough of me crying about school and would like to hear more about my illustrious weekend, which I should mention held a special/significant day (=
So picking up where I left off in the last post, all those shots were taken when me and a friend were walking around Dundas Square after picking up her ticket to this show that took place on the Sunday following up. Had pad thai at some place called Spring Rolls, real classy place I felt so low class as I stepped in. Food tasted good especially this drink my friend recommended, the Mamma-Mia. Though the food tasted good, it could've seriously used less oil. Me and my friend felt kinda sick afterwards (I had to wait for my long ass journey home to use the can, that's how bad my stomach felt). I was finally able to finish my sociology essay and god it feels great to be done with such a huge assignment, now I got an even bigger one to get done with -_-

Friday was nothing special, just worked an evening shift. The next day however was a good day indeed. First off it was my 18TH BIRTHDAY! Yup, in the early afternoon me and my family had dim sum in celebration of my birth. I haven't ate out with my family in so long, all those days where I wished I hadn't gone out with my family I totally regret it now. I realize how much I love my family and how important they are, along with how spenind time with them goes a long way. My mom was so happy it was my birthday, just to see her smile like that kept me smiling all day. My mom is the most beautiful woman in the world in case you people haven't noticed.









So after dim sum, we went into Vaughn Mills. My parents asked what I wanted and I told them a winter coat would be fine. I ended up getting more than I asked for (= Shopped at H&M, got a winter coat, some sort of blazer, and a hat! Sorry no pictures, to lazy to take them =p
After my time with my family, I caught up with probably my closest friends from Toronto and we watched Role Models. That movie was fucken jokes, the little black kid in the movie is too funny. When the movie finished, it was dark out and it was raining. I had reservation at this paint ball place at 7pm and none of my friends came on time. So we spent like a good 15 minutes sitting in the car thinking of what to do, meanwhile two of my friends in the back seat were mad because they had to go home. So I dropped them off at the nearest subway and went on a search for my good friend I call Korea. Korea ended up walking in the wrong direction getting lost and having no clue where he was, all while under the heavy rain fall. Thank goodness we found him! I got so worried about my man. He even got me a birthday gift, this water bottle from Swiss Army that can apparently handle shots from a gun! It was sick, thank you Korea.

So after picking up Korea, we headed back to paint ball and everybody arrived. Got in registered and suited up. God I was scared shitless, it was like I suited up for war. I saw all these white people there suited up with their professional gears and guns they bought on their own. This kid half my height was using a gun that was the size of golden retriever! As soon as we got in the field, my googles had already fogged up and I could not see anything. I ended up getting shot 3 times...all in the face.



I had to leave the game early because a pretty co-worker of mine had bought me a cake (L). Turns out when I got there, everybody working that night waited for me and not jsut her! I felt so overwhelmed I cried (on the inside). I love where I work, because the people there are cool (Y). They sang happy birthday to me, man.... happy days.



To end off the night, me, Korea, and another friend had our last meal of the day at Moxie's. This place was like a club or something seriously, the food was hella expensive, but damn was it good. The waiter was cool too, I tipped him nice because of it. I had some chicken entree and o m g, you gotta try their sweet potato fries! THEY'RE FUCKEN GOOD.



Good birthday indeed. And the weekend did not stop there. Sunday I went to a concert with my friend. Yes, I went to a Dir En Grey show that took place at Kool Haus. I went to my friends place first but got lost on the way and ended up on the highway...

During the show...it was horrible. Horrible because the people attending the show were fucken crazy. Mosh pits here and there, sweat dripping from all angles, little girls getting hurt, people stepping on my shoes, elbows to the face, some girl's dreadlocks even got rubbed on my face. But, the performance form the band was excellent. High energy, well delivered. They even had a long ass encore. I even bumped into a guy I met at Ryerson after the show. I knew he'd be there, he told me he loves that kind of music. Truthfully, I don't even listen to Dir En Grey LOL. We went to that show because well they're a Japanese band LOL. Well worth the admission cost. Man it was so hot up in that spot, I started sweating like a monkey in a sauna. When the show finished my shirt was all damped and stuff, my pants...I couldn't tell if it was sweat or if I pissed in them. I lost like ten pounds due to all the jumping and the heat, seriously. Got home couldn't wait to take a shower and I had the next day at 8am too.

That leads to today (the past two days nothing significant happened). IT SNOWED TODAY! And it still is! YAY SNOW! Just driving in it sucks. Hopefully classes are cancelled for tomorrow...>=) I'll end today;s entry with pictures I took prior to logging on to blogspot today. Toodles.

Oh by the way, I covered Under My Skin and Ato 10 Byou De by ART-SCHOOL. Check them out on my youtube channel ---> click on "his youtube channel". That is all. Ciao.

Night Lights and Pad Thai.

Sorry, can't write much. I'm procastinating enough as it is! I have to write this essay! Next post will probably be on Monday.

It's almost that time of the year again.

It's been nearly a week since the last blog entry, been a while I know. I've just been lazy and thinking too much about school and doing nothing about it LOL. I have another accounting quiz coming up this week, along with the SOC200 final essay due on Friday. But, the most important day of the week is Saturday. Why? because it is "...already that time of the year". Yeah, you guessed it, it is my birthday. I am finally turning 18, the age people are still surprised that I haven't reached yet.

So on my 18th birthday my plan is to have dim sum with my family in the morning then in the afternoon-evening-ish go paint balling with my friends. Then on Sunday go to a Dir En Grey concert at the Kool Haus. I don't even like this band but they're Japanese and that's all that matters. Me and friend said when the next Japanese band comes to Toronto WE HAVE TO GO. And in a week we shall. I've listened to some of their music and it's not that bad, there was one that I liked. But, if they're PV's were not so disturbing and had they not dressed like drag queens I would feel more comfortable to openly listen to them more. It's okay though cause my friend actually likes this band, so at least one of attending the show will enjoy it A LOT. I hopefully will enjoy it and grow on to their music. What I also hope is that there will actually Japanese people attending the show LOL. I know kinda selfish but COME ON! Toronto barely has any Japanese people to begin with! WHERE ARE YOU PEOPLE HIDING? I WANT TO MEET YOU! DON'T BE SHY!

So yesterday me and my brother were forced to rake the leaves on our front yard. Apparently we had some mechanical device that SUCKS up the leaves. I was surprised and astonished by the nifty deice of machinery. It saved us so much time and it was actually fun, felt like I was holding the soul calibur or something. I started doing poses and swinging the thing around, felt like a seven years old after watching Power Rangers or something hehe. I even went as far as making my brother run upstairs to get my cell phone and take pictures LOL.




I feel tired right now, I gotta get up extra early and commute to school tomorrow. So ciao!

The Ultimate Strawberry Milk.

Today, I technically did not go to school. You see I went to my first class at 8am, but I ended up sleeping through the whole lecture. THAT'S 2 HOURS! Then for my next class I didn't even go. Went to Best Buy with a friend and played Guitar Hero and left for home. On the way home I fell asleep on the subway (yet again) and this time I didn't even know it was the last stop until I woke up by accident and was like "OH SHIT THIS IS THE STOP!". As I stood up I felt the drool from my mouth and a stain on my shirt (jesus -_-). Got home checked the mail box, MY CD'S STILL HAVE NOT ARRIVED! IT HAS BEEN OVER 2 WEEK! WHAT THE HELL CDJAPAN?!

Got home, ate like a monster. Slept, ate dinner with family, played on the bass for a bit, then went up stairs and lounged until this point. I just went downstairs for a midnight snack and I happen to take out strawberry milk form the fridge. I never tried it before and it tastes ALRIGHT, still prefer chocolate milk. I just finished this accounting question since my group gotta present our answers in the next class, gotta show some participation. Today's entry is rather short don't you think? I was able to find some more new musics from bands such as VELTPUNCH, BOOM BOOM SATELLITES, and Sci-Fi Avengers. I love music. Peace.

Little Miss Weekend.

Does it not feel nice to get an extra hour of sleep? OF COURSE IT DOES! At 2am last night daylight saving kicked in and time got pushed back an hour. In all honestly, it did not affect me that much LOL. I feel somewhat good, I found out I scored 90% on my MGT200 midterm and I got 80% on my phase 2 for my ITM assignment, yay me! Once again my weekend is nearing its conclusion, what have I gotten done so far this weekend? Let us recap...

On Friday, I had my one hour tutorial for popular culture and funny story my T.A. called me a bastard lmao. Don't you just love teacher student bonding? She actually remembers my name. Anyways, after the tutorial I met up with a friend from high school for some lunch. And guess what he had? It has three letters and is basically Vietnam's stamp in the culinary world. Yes you guessed correctly, pho. The place she took me to yesterday was really good, surprising actually. It was great seeing her again, talking and laughing with her in person is just better than the usualy method over chatting over the internet.

So after pho, we just walked around the area, we were about to catch a movie, but the theatre did not open until 3:30pm, and I would not have had enough time to make it back in time for my shift. Oh this day was Halloween, apparently not many kids went trick or treating in my neighbourhood says my mom, and at work it was DEAD like literally dead, I was even able to get off an hour and half early. It was a quiet Halloween nonetheless.

A photo of this mall like building above a Loblaws (the theatre was at the top level).

On Saturday I had a shift from 4-10 and boy was it a long and gruesome one. It was actually busy compared to the night before. After I got home, I don't remember what I did actually, oh right watched the rest of the Raptors game. We won by the way (=. I've been working on writing music from here and there and my first one is starting to turn out really good, well at least from what it sounds on Guitar Pro. All I need now is a guitar solo, a track for drums, and of course the lyrics. I've written some lyrics here and there not sure if they'll fit with this composition. Its hard writing musc really, especially if you're trying not bite or sound like your favourite bands (which is probably inevitable for first timers). I really like the way Riki Kinishita (from ART-SCHOOL) writes his lyrics, he's usually referencing to a girl for example Wynona Ryder Android, Lily, and many more. So I started doing the same LOL.

Speaking on the topic of music, I found out that STRAIGHTENER had released a new PV promoting their upcoming single "Little Miss Weekend", and let me just say that STRAIGHTENER delivered with this one. Ahhh I love it, so edgy, powerful, energized and the PV is great as well. I still kind of miss the old STRAIGHTENER from a few years ago though. Melodic Storm still regurgitates from my diaphragm every time in in the car. Heres the video from youtube. Check it out.


Great isn't it?